How things can totally change around in a few days? Wednesday night while Elt was prepping dinner, I literally lost my ability to speak. I wanted to ask Elt where the salmon was but all I could do was stare at him blankly. He didn't understand why I wasn't responding. I couldn't even move my lips. Finally I uttered the words, "Where's the pajamas?" I was confused and I went over to wetch some t.v. Half an hour later, Elt was calling us for dinner and I stood over Aidan to tell him to go to the table. Again, I couldn't say a thing. I was thinking, "Is this really happening? Why can't I can't open my mouth?" Getting more and more concerned, Elt moved me over the couch and that's when I had a seizure in my face. We called the ambulance and I was admitted into RCH.
At the hospital, I was put in a CT scan of my head and was told that I had 3 brain tumours. 2 were operatible and the other was too dangerous. The next day, after a full body CT and a MRI of my head, they told me I had cancer in my lungs as well. The only good news is that my bone scan came back clear. Fast forward to today, I was given a weekend pass to come home so I can rest and my bed could be saved until I go back in tonight to prep for surgery Monday.
On top of all the drama, the night we came home, Liam was to RCH to do tests on his breathing. He's had similar problems before but really couldn't have happened at a worse time. He is doing much better now.
The surgery will be 2 hours long and apparently, not too painful compared to my reconstruction. I will be in recovery for 6 hours afterwards. I prefer to not have visitors for the first two days and even then, except family. I will be expected to stay the hospital 3-5 days depending on how I do.
Please refer to the blog for more information as the constant bombardment of questions is exhausting to Elt. We really just need to focus on moment-by-moment decisions. Currently Elt and I am on a raw veggie diet so there's no need for food. It's just a another form of combat on my side and has proven time and time and again that diet can make a big difference. I am also looking into some alternative ways to use the effectively of the chemo which works in conjunction with BCCA.
There are no words to explain how I feel but I'm trying my best. It comes in waves. I don't know what treatment protocols are ahead but I'm just going to focus on the surgery. Thank you for all your continual support, prayers, and positive energy. This will be the long haul and we're going to need all the strength we can to get through this.
Love, J
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